“Louise,
Make amends with someone from your past if you want to truly move on. You may not want any more confrontation, but it’s unavoidable. There is something, or someone, holding you back.”
This was today’s horoscope. Over the past few months it has been a recurring theme. I must forgive to move forward with that in mind I text my husband a note.
Today I sit and know that I have to forgive you. Whether you get it or not, your deception of never telling me your status was wrong. You didn’t have the right to make that choice for me and your denial the times I asked you just compounded the situation when it finally came to light. You have left me with scars I don’t deserve and a heart that is filled with ice. Please do not do to another what you have done to me. They may not be as forgiving and do what God’s grace stopped me from doing. I hope that life finds you well. And I forgive you.
I did it. I wrote the words. I sent them into the wind. My heart flutters and I can barely breathe.No matter what, I must take this step. I must release this anger. It is not healthy. It makes my stomach clench. I must make these words my mantra. I forgive you. I forgive you. I forgive you. They must become real and have a life of their own. They must imbue my essence. Bond with my spirit. Become more than mere words but a certainty. I must feel the Divine in me and walk in His Majesty. Will he do the right thing? It is not my concern. I can hope and pray but at the end of the day, I have to take care of me.
I am coming along side of you wispering prayers to help you release all and enfolding you with strength from God to move forward and move on. It is a brave thing that you have uttered but it is only God who can bring it to fruition. I know because of my death of a marriage.
You will take it one day at time; pouring yourself into your work, your vision and your God given creativity. As you do so you will move further away from that dark place. When you are stronger you will glimpse back and see how far you have come.
I remain your sister,
Val
Hello!
This issue of forgiveness got me in a whirlwind. Many people chimed in, and different religions (Judaism) stirred the pot even more.
Finally, I had to acknowledge that the person I was ‘forgiving’ was a habitual abuser of women, and way beyond anything of my forgiveness.
How do you forgive intentional and destructive cruelty? Sadism?
You forgive YOURSELF for being so stupid and naive to becoming involved. It happens.
I agree…step away from that very dark place. Some people only reside in the darkness. Protect your beautiful creativity and keep moving. Leave them to whatever God they look to.
And yes, take care of yourself first. And always. And time will heal so much hurt.
Lady Nyo
Awesome to see this happen